Ant Middleton, the lead instructor on SAS Australia has opened up about one of the lowest points in his life.
Talking on Eddie Hearne’s Podcast No Passion, No Point, the SAS Australia star, 40, opened up about his time in the military, prison, and eventually turning his whole life around.
But there was one point in his life where he knew things had to change.
The father-of-five revealed on the podcast that after his stint in prison, he had to use his child’s pocket money to buy milk following leaving prison in 2013.
He says it was the turning point of his life.
“I remember when I got out of prison, I remember opening the fridge and literally having no milk for the kids and I had to get my daughter’s penny jar and smash it open and get all the 20 pences and all the 50 pences,” he recalled.
“I had to literally accumulate all those to get two pints of milk until I waited for my next pay cheque and I remember thinking ‘We can’t live like this, I’ve got so much to give.’
“I was a special forces operator, I know I’ve got a resilient and robust mindset and unique way of thinking so this can never happen again.
“And then I went from that to writing my first book, more TV shows, more books, doing UK tours.
He continued: “I’ve had no money and now I have money and I know which side I’d rather be.”
The ex-Royal Marine star served four months in prison for assaulting two police officers outside of a nightclub in 2013.
“I can just remember as soon as that hammer went down,” he explained. ‘”remember this weight being lifted off my shoulders because I knew what I needed to do – I’ve got to do 14 months.
The worst moment is not being able to own a situation, I didn’t know if I was going to get one year, two years, five years. When you are in control you can take ownership.”
The instructor went on to explain how shameful it was.
“I remember the first roll call, standing by my door, shouting my number saying I was present, thinking I have gone from being an elite special forces operator to being a number in the nick and that was the most shameful experience of my life – my head hung with shame,” he said.
“I don’t mind being away from the family when I’m providing for them, when I’m putting food on the table, when I’m showing my children what work ethic is all about and I’m leading by example.
“But when I’m a burden on them and I’m in there proving nothing to society or my family I vowed to myself I would never return to prison because of that shameful experience.”